What’s the one secret you’ve never dared tell anyone else?

1. **Due to the nature of this thread, we hope the following resources will be helpful:** * [RAINN] (https://www.rainn.org/about-national-sexual-assault-telephone-hotline) has a multitude of tools for current and recovering sexual assault victims in the US. This includes a free, confidential 24/7 hotline that can be reached at 800-656-HOPE. * HotPeachPages has an [international directory] (http://www.hotpeachpages.net/a/countries.html) for abuse hotlines, shelters, refuges, domestic violence information, crisis centers, and women's organizations in over 110 languages. * [1in6] (https://1in6.org/) offers a wide range of information and services exclusively for **male** sexual violence survivors. This includes an online 24/7 [support group and support line] (http://1in6.org/chat-with-someone/). * /r/rapecounseling is dedicated to providing emotional support to those who have experienced any type of sexual violence. /r/adultsurvivors is a community for adults who experienced sexual abuse as children. Please keep in mind these communities are lead by well-meaning nonprofessionals. * The befrienders [website](http://www.befrienders.org/) has a global list of local suicide help charities, along with other assistance. Or for just the US try [Lifeline](http://www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org/) or call 24/7 1-800-273-8255 (TALK). On reddit, there is /r/suicidewatch where well-meaning and sympathetic people will try and help, but be aware they may not be trained. *Please contact the [moderators of this subreddit](https://www.reddit.com/message/compose?to=%2Fr%2FAskReddit), if you have any questions or concerns.*
   — enantiodromia_


2. First girl I fell in love with a few years ago, was a long distance relationship. After I told her I loved her, couple months later maybe, she finally admits to me she is married. I stayed with her for a few more months until she cut all contact. I was so scared of being alone. I still am, but now I am just living with it.
   — Darkrell


3. This thread is so depressing. I'll lighten it up a bit. I got a hair transplant when I was 27 (36 now) and nobody in the entire world but the surgical team knows.
   — Re_LE_Vant_UN






4. About a year before my mom died she came home from an evening out with her friends completely shit faced. She didn't have any sort of drinking problem or anything like that, she just liked happy hour and was a light weight. Usually she would just come home and take a nap but this was the first time she'd gone out since her latest round of chemo so she overestimated how much she could drink. I spent about an hour sitting outside the bathroom as she was throwing up. She kept telling me she was a horrible mother and I shouldn't have to take care of her and she made me grow up too fast by getting cancer and I shouldn't be seeing her like this. When she was done puking I cleaned her up and put her to bed and she made me swear never to tell anyone that she got that drunk and made her kid take care of her. It was the last promise I made her and it wasn't until there years after she died that I had a meltdown and told my wife about it. She's still the only one who knows.
   — buh-blam


5. I have full on conversations with people that don't exist. Imagine having imaginary friends at the age of 19. I originally made these 'characters' up as a kid because I was often lonely, and now I keep them around to keep me levelheaded when I'm in tense situations. I often jokingly refer to it as 'Controlled Schizophrenia'. To myself, of course.
   — lunboks112


6. My mother molested my sister in front of me. It was for only a second before I yelled at her to stop. She is never going to admit it and my sister was so little she can’t remember so I’m never saying a word.
   — spaceball5






7. I’m in my 40’s and still dream of playing professional baseball. I’m training right now to do just that. I figure if I can pitch 100mph, a team will give me a shot.
   — BigFunkyStank


8. Buddy since elementary school had his father pass away when we were young. He inherited his dads truck when we were teenagers I was fucking around in it looking for stash spots for weed and I found a hidden list that had divorce family on it. I threw it away and never said anything
   — charlesh4


9. That my last break up drove me to plan to kill myself and I did all prep work ( cleaned the house, put out all of the documents someone would need after I die ) and I ended up backing out once I loaded the gun. Edit: Spelling
   — unicornman5d






10. Back when I was in school, a kid peed in the urinal and took a shit on the floor at the same time
    — HabadaDoobadaDoobadi


11. That I’ve been depressed as long as I can remember. How could I ever admit that to someone? Everything’s been served to me in a silver platter, yet here I am wishing I’d just die in my sleep. I really don’t know what it would take to open up to someone. I don’t want to complicate some poor unsuspecting friend and ultimately just have them wish I hadn’t told them. The guilt of feeling this way while having such an easy life is what keeps everything down.
    — hardman_


12. I know my wife’s reddit name so I go and upvote everything she posts even if I disagree.
    — xdrakennx