Redditors with depression, or those who are just kinda down, how are you today? Anything you'd like to talk about?

1. It's my birthday (19F) and I have no friends at all to celebrate it with and no one in my family has remembered. I feel awful and wondering what is even the point of it all.
   — violxtleader


2. Had a dream about my ex. Thinking about how easily he's going to move on burns. Its rough.
   — computerwires


3. It's getting harder every day to put on the mask and pretend everything is ok. Nobody wants to hear a sob story so it's easier for everyone if I keep it to myself
   — YourLongLostDad






4. For my own part, my depression got pretty bad over this past weekend, but I found myself drunkenly opening up on Reddit, which lead me to a support group I spent a few hours speaking with late on Friday night. It felt good, and I'd like to be able to help anyone in some small way. I've got no meetching scheduled today, so why not start now? If anyone wants to talk, I'm here. I'll listen, I'll reply, I'll answer PMs, we can have an open discussion. Lay it out there, Reddit! You might just feel better.
   — mark0210


5. Had that girl that i liked, i gathered courage to go and tell her that, so while i was flipping through the contacts on my phone to find her number i got a call from my best friend to tell me she told him that she likes him and he accepted her. (He didn't know i liked her) I felt like something heavy fell on me.... well congrats to him, i'll just have to suck it up the rest of my life i think.
   — MrMcAce


6. Im alive and counting my blessings but dealing with the emptiness i feel. Im 29. Living with my parents after two people i called my best friends fucked me out of over $5000 - all the money i had saved in my life - when moving out of our apartment. They trashed the place and i was the only person the property management group could get a hold of so the entire thing became my financial responsibility.My other close friends i had have cut me off completely, some for the good some for the bad. I have a hard time making friends anyway so right now i have zero friends. I have never had a girlfriend or been in a relationship. Women are attracted to me for my looks but lose interest quickly. I try to do right and be a good person to no avail. I've been unemployed for 10 months. I had a mental break down at my $8.50 an hour retail job last November and quit at the end of December. Everything i touch falls to pieces. I dont have the heart to search for anything else. Im not interested in anything or have any motivation to do anything besides eat sleep or play video games or wait for a new episode of my favorite tv shows. I feel like a burden to everybody. At times i think the only reason I'm alive right now is because i dont want my parents to bury me. TLDR I have nothing going for me and no body wants me in their life. Im unmotivated to do anything constructive with my life. thanks for listening.
   — dreamsarentfake






7. Girlfriend broke up with me about 4 months ago. It hasn't become any easier l, if not harder to get through the day. With the emotional damage from that combined with some existing issues, it's been an extremely lonely and hopeless year so far.
   — RedPikmin11


8. I'm really exhausted. Tired of the depression, tired of keeping the demons away. My hallucinations are coming back. Mostly the ones I hear. I' scared of telling people around me, as I don't want to worry anyone, or disappoint them. The last time I had this "period", I was hospitalized, and fantasized about suicide constantly. I don't want to go back there. I don't want to be locked up. I don't want to start on medication that fucks up my metabolism again. I don't want to go through any of this anymore. I just want peace, you know?
   — Charlieoleeaa


9. To be honest, I dread waking up everyday. I'm in a bit of a shit situation and have been depressed since January because of it. I legitimately have suicidal thoughts every day.
   — steveocaster92






10. It's so easy to fall into a death spiral. I stayed up too late one night, didn't feel up to working out or spending time out of the house the next day, then progressively got worse every day until I noticed I hadn't been anywhere but home/work/class since the last time I bought groceries. I spent some quality time with a treadmill and a daylight lamp yesterday, so here's hoping I can work my way up to functional again.
    — Zahn_Nen_Dah


11. Anything and everything hurts. I'm going to try to cry myself to sleep. Goodnight.
    — darthvadertheinvader